I am as vain as I allow.

I haven't posted on this blog in a very long time. I think I just lost interest in it. I wasn't motivated to talk about my thoughts anymore. It seems as though so many things have happened since I posted last. I, personally, haven't really changed at all though. I still don't do anything constructive with my time. I really don't contribute to society in anyway. I keep my house clean and I stay out of trouble. I avoid speaking to my parents at all costs just to avoid drama and confrontations. I know it's not the best type of relationship to have with the people that gave you life, but I guess it's safe. I'm still obsessed with buying things that I don't need. I've gone on a major makeup purchasing spree lately. For the past six months I've bought enough makeup for like 40 people to use over the course of like 2 years. I haven't really been into going out of town for raves and clubs all that much lately. I like staying local nowadays. Maybe I've been paranoid about bad things lately so I just stick to doing what I'm comfortable with. I've been doing the whole house party thing a lot more lately. I still don't really have any responsibilities. I still go through friends as often as I change handbags. I'm not really good at holding onto people. I don't burn bridges to be malicious, I just feel as though I need a break from particular people pretty often and then misunderstandings arise, and the next things I know, I've got more enemies than acquaintances. I do, however, wish all of the people nothing but the absolute best for the future. I try not to harbor resentments for people in my past. The summer is slowly coming to an end. It's almost as though nothing came out of this summer at all. I met some pretty awesome people, but I didn't really get the most out of the warmest, most carefree season this year. I used to be so much more extraverted, I used to to so many more risks. Maybe as I get older, I feel as though I should take less risks to stay out of trouble. I don't really experiment with illegal substances anymore. I barely even drink or socially smoke anymore hahahahaha.... I've recently been really into Makeup and Beauty Blogs and Online Makeup Tutorials. I'm so fuckin outrageous, HUH!!?!?!? That's another thing, I really don't cuss all that much anymore. Of course, when I'm angry, I may pepper my language with the occasional bad word, but for the most part, I avoid profanity. I've realized a lot of things about myself lately. In fact, I'm starting to realize why I don't like posting "blogs" all that much. They're tedious. It's nearly impossible to organize my thoughts when just pulling them out of my head. But, then again, this is just a bunch of things I'm thinking about. It doesn't have to be organized at all. This keyboard is really starting to annoy me. I've really been into Dubstep lately.